Doctor visit

Went to the doctor today for a sore throat I have had since November and he said what you are probably thinking- why did you wait for so long? Well, I have 4 children and that is enough reason right there. I kept thinking it would get better, and it would for a while, then it would get worse again, you know how mothers just ignore their own health. Anyway, the aggravating thing is not the soreness, it is larangytis- my already low voice is now lower and scratchier, and singing is getting to be more and more frustrating. So I came home with prescriptions for allergies, which is apparently the source of all this, and another "unwritten" prescription to take a break from singing and to cut down on talking as much as possible. Now, this doctor also has 4 children, and he is fully aware that I homeschool them, so even as he was speaking he started laughing, I guess at the ridiculousness of that statement!

So, I have to take a little break from leading the Praise Team, which I love, and have to try to use crazy hand gestures and whispering to talk to my children. Not the news that I wanted, but just something that is annoying to deal with in order to heal and not cause permanent damage.

I love to talk. I love to sing. I need to talk, I need to sing. So I am asking God, while sitting in the cafe at Ingles eating a salad (alone, can you believe it?!), how do I do this?! And here is what I heard, "Choose your words wisely and you won't have to use so many." Very clearly, very simply, those were my instructions. And while I processed them, I started thinking about how so many times I have let my mouth be like a faucet that runs with no shut off valve, and how many times I have prayed "Set a guard over my mouth, O Lord, keep watch over the door of my lips." Psalm 141:3 and yet have pushed the guard aside and said, 'This one's OK to get through." It was pretty convicting, and I am praying that while my voice heals, my heart will learn a lesson. If you don't mind, add them both to your list for prayer!